I’ve been in a bit of a slump since last night. I know I’ve been a little bit of an emotional rollercoaster lately when it comes to exercise, so bear with me.
Last night, I planned to run my usual 30 minute run but called it quits after “only” 26. I know, I know. I should be proud of every minute/mile I run, and I’ve been pretty positive about my capabilities lately but last night was not one of those nights. My lungs were on fire, and I was even coughing during parts of my run, which hasn’t happened in a long time. I know that this is mainly because of the high pollen count yesterday which aggravated my asthma, but I just can’t stop beating myself up over it.
Instead of dwelling on my negative thoughts and writing about them here, driving me further into negative head space, I decided on my drive to work this morning that I’m going to really focus on turning negatives into positives and let go of what I can’t control. I will concentrate on this for a week.
There are things I can manage but I can’t change. I am an asthmatic. I am a year-round allergy sufferer. I can’t change these things, but I can adapt by being diligent with my asthma management plan that has helped me move forward from zero to 3+ miles and running indoors when the pollen counts are high.
It’s going to take a lot of effort to catch myself in negative thinking and consciously stop myself. We’re all guilty of seeing ourselves in a negative light, even if subconsciously. I will continue repeating positive thoughts to myself when I find myself going in the wrong direction:
- I am a runner.
- I am capable of anything I set my mind to, even if it takes a little longer to get there or at a slower pace.
- Every mile or minute I run is another mile or minute I otherwise would not have run.
- I have a great support system.
- I am a much happier, healthier person than I was a year ago.
- I have come a long, long way.